How Many Times?I've lost count.
How many times can you break me
Before i'm smart enough to just walk away
I feel that number may be infinant.
I hate the pain
It get's so bad
You think it would be enough to just say goodbye
But it never is.
You're all i want
You're all i've ever wanted
And a week before the best day of our lives
You decide to walk away.
I let myself get so attached
You were the only one i let my walls down for.
But this isn't the first time.
And im fairley certain it won't be the last.
RelapseSitting in the darkness alone and afraid
The essence of duct tape glue still bound to her skin
Fast breaths and the worst intentions on her mind
Searching for what will stop this madness
Where could they be?
She knows their here..
All of a sudden,
Cold metal upon her frantic fingertips, sends an energy wave of anticipation through her shaking body
Time to let it all out
Time to release it all
Get a firm grip on the blade
You don't wanna fuck this up like everything else says her unstable mind
Close your eyes and take a deep breath
Here it comes
Get ready now
The tip of the blade just breaks her shivering pale skin,
As she drags it across her broken dislocated wrist
The blade goes deeper and deeper
As more cuts are carved into her scar'd flesh
The sound of the metal hitting the floor
As crimson regret flows to the surface, pouring out of the incisions
Lay down .. with your back on the cold wooden floor says her somewhat stabilized mind
It wont be long now....
BetrayalYour words mean nothing
How could you.
Three years of trust gone.
And i hate you more than life.
You were the one i use to go to
Now you're nothing
And so isn't your life.
Was he worth it?
Was he worth our friendship?
The only word i hear when your name is mentioned.
You did this to us
You ruined it all
You ruined me.
I will never forgive you.